||[May. 25th, 2011|06:22 am]
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i am exhausted from trying to get this prospectus finished. and today i am going in for CT scan of my lungs, the 3rd one in a little over a year. i'm hoping that my lungs show improvement - i've been on prednisone for a little over 3 months now, and am feeling much, much better.
but today i was reading someone's blog about sarcoidosis, and how it's really hard to deal with a diagnosis that could be chronic. i've had two of those in the last year. two.
and, like the person who was blogging about this, i have gone through all the emotional wildness associated with diagnoses like this. i've been angry, depressed, hopeless...and also very grateful for amazing friends and family who have been there to support me and hug me and just let me cry. because i have cried. a lot.
i've had a really hard time with people who have only told me that i shouldn't freak out because i'm doing everything i can, and that's all i can do. but i don't want to talk about them.
so today i'm going for this scan. if it's good, great. if not, i'll probably have to have a pretty major biopsy of my right lung in the next couple of months. if you have any good wishes, happy energy, or prayers to spare, i sure would appreciate them.